Saturday, November 10, 2012
Sometimes I just have alot to say. Since I don't hang out in bars like I used to and I don't come into contact with as many people as I once did.
Withholding. I've been keeping my emotions bottled up. I'm petrified of my life expanding the way it is. In order to not be overwhelmed, I remind myself that I chose to live a big life.
Drive is what's keeping me moving right now. I'm on a path to becoming a best selling author and it feels amazing. People believe in me and I believe in people. Am I becoming a humanitarian? Who knows?
What I do know is that my purpose on the planet is to make a difference in the lives of others.
Today I was thinking about how my mother's belt and my ass were such close friends. She used to wear my ass out. There was no father in my household. He was murdered when I was 8 years old. It was my first experience of loss and it was devastating. I had no siblings. Some have labeled me as a mama's boy. I guess.
Subconsciously, I think all of those ass whippings made me numb and emotionless. I seek to have compassion, I just get confronted with what to say. I hate any type of confrontation, but I know life wouldn't happen without them.
Let me get back to the grind with my amazing life. I hope you are living your best life too! Remember to be self expressed!
Nathan Seven Scott